Monday, September 27, 2010

Laughter

Today is just one of those days where I need to laugh it off! I need to laugh as Piper has gotten into the frig for the 20th time and is now carrying around the bottle of salad dressing, as Parker is throwing grapes across the table at Peyton, as I'm cleaning smashed Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwich off the floor and the bottom of my foot, as I chase Piper around with a vacuum as she eats a muffin (I know its my own dumb fault for not putting her in the booster seat, but I just wasn't in the mood - guess I paid for my laziness), as Parker is sitting in time out and screaming at the top of his lungs (and then proceeds to scream for the next hour till he finally crashes for a nap), as we are racing to the bus stop which ends with Parker screaming because he can't get on too, as its 1:30 and I am just getting to finally put food into my shaking, hungry body, as Piper tries to scale the entertainment center for the 100th time today and finally Parker gets so tired of hearing me tell her to get down that he lifts her down (did I mention that he's only 10lbs heavier than she is).... its just one of those days where I gotta laugh!!!

Tanya

Friday, September 24, 2010

Refreshed

Today we went to the library and of course any adventure out with all 4 kids on my own is, well exactly that, an adventure! We pull into the parking lot and there isn't a spot in sight and end up in the overflow lot. Of course stress level is starting to rise knowing I'm going to have lug all 4 of them from Never Never Land into the library without getting hit by a car. The parking lot is always a challenge because of the lack of arms to carry 2 toddlers and a baby. So with both boys cooperating and holding onto the stroller that is carrying both babies we make it safely through the front door, we return our books, and head to the children's section.

I don't like to take them places where they can't be coralled because they all head in different directions and I can't keep up, but surprisingly they did AWESOME! Everyone stayed in one little section (which is no small feat with two toddlers), they all shared with each other and the other kids there, there was no complaining when it was time to go, no one ran away when we were trying to leave...It was a rather stress free trip out.

Topping it all off were the comments I got from other people. Typically I get comments that get under my skin and are hard for me to shrug off. Pretty often I get, "WOW, you have your hands full!" - which is usually code for you are insane for having 4 kids or you have no control over your kids so why did you have them (Or maybe that's me thinking that!!) :) Just kidding! Most people have very negative comments or their tone is very negative and with my stress level already so high, it just really gets to me. BUT, today as I'm watching everyone watching me handle my four kids, biting their toungue as they take it all in, one sweet lady with her toddler grandson says to me, "You are one very busy lady." To which I say, "Yes I am!Four kids keeps me moving." She says, "And you are so calm!" Me, "That's because they are all being so good. The key is to get out before someone has a meltdown".

As we're checking out, the lady checking our books out says, "All I can say is wow (as she looks in the stroller, my arms carrying Paxton and at the boys, silently counting) and you are cool as a cucumber. I am throughly impressed!!" "Thank you!", I say with a HUGE smile on my face.

Its not often that I get positive uplifting comments about handling all my kids that leave me feeling refreshed and as if I can really do this whole thing called motherhood. Often I am just trying to survive, hold my head above water, do whatever I can to get through the crazy moments without crying or screaming, and to have two people point out how well they thought I handled the kids was really nice to hear.

So, how long did their good behavior last, you ask? Until they got into their carseats and the boys were already exchanging slaps back and forth! Oh well, it was nice while it lasted.

Tanya

Friday, September 17, 2010

First smiles

My heart just melts with those first smiles... After weeks of what seems like a blank stare, wondering how much they can see and just what they are thinking, the reward is BIG. The first smiles always bring tears of joy to my eyes. I'm trying to capture every first moment and savor it as I know this is my last baby to go through all these with. (Even though this was 11:30 at night and my eyes were burning with exhaustion!


Its extrememly hard to get a good angle with a chubby little baby who only can only lie down, but cute nonetheless!
Tanya

Our Kindergartener

So I'm only about 2 wks late on posting this, but better late than never, right?? I had my first official mommy letting go moment. Peyton started Kindergarten on Sept 7th and is LOVING it!!! As I fought the urge to follow the bus to school (and throw up), the tears were running down my cheeks as my first baby rode to school with a complete stranger behind the wheel and with no seatbelt, but we all made it! And now sending him with such eagerness and excitement in his step has been a joy for him and for me! We love you buddy and are SO proud of you!

Parker had to wear a backpack too and cried when he couldn't get on the bus too (and still does EVERYDAY!!)



Tanya

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

My week has just been one of those weeks and its only Wednesday!

As a mother of 2 toddlers, life is a constant whirlwind of testing the limits. Now that Jeff is back to work after a week off with us, the kids have decided its a free for all and they are going to see how far they can push mommy before she blows.

Piper has mastered a few new tricks this week like climbing up on the couch, stopping the baby's swing right after I get him to calm down, and standing on the endtable between the couches, all leaving me pulling my hair out. As I sit helplessly feeding a baby with bad reflux who really could benefit from a few straight minutes of feeding rather than me constantly stopping him to put an end to the toddler antics, I wonder when it ever got to the point where just getting her to sit down on the table (rather than get down) became satisfactory. Or when she falls off, I don't gasp and rush to pick her up, but rather ask her if she's ok and think to myself "Well maybe she'll learn to not jump around on the couch!"

Oh how things change from the first child to the third. Sorry Pax, but you just might be fending for yourself soon. :) To think that I still have one more to put through this toddler stage....

Tanya

Monday, September 13, 2010

Eternally Grateful

As I sit with tears running down my cheeks, watching the minutes pass until my husband calls to say he's on his way home, my clothes covered in spit up, feeding a very fussy baby, watching helplessly while my two toddlers crush Cheezits all over the living room floor, use the coffee table to practice their balancing skills, do gymnastics with the ride on horse, climb into the baby swing, throw toys all over the room, I am reminded of a story I read on another mommy friend and cousin's blog about a mom of a 2 yr old who has a brain tumor and currently is in a comma.

With a breaking heart for this family, my mommy woes become moments to treasure and remind me how eternally grateful I am for the 4 little blessings God has given me. God is a God who gives AND takes away, reminding us to cherish every moment as if it were our last, EVEN when you're sitting on the floor holding two toddlers all while trying to quiet a crying baby aching for the moment when your husband walks through the door to lend a hand. Thank you Lord even for moments like these!

Friday, September 10, 2010

1 month checkup


Our little man is officially NOT little. He had his one month well check today and he weighed in at 13lbs 1 oz and has grown an inch!!